After you left, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason. And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.

My Immortal - Evanescence
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Anyway, if any of u ppl do not think that what
I've blogged all these while are real, that I've lied
bout going out with her, u can always ask us...

Coz if u really know me well, U know i'm not the
type of guy who will not want to write fake stuffs
about me just to show you ppl i'm happy..
I dont have to do that..

If she really denies going out with me, then
tell me.. I'll go talk to her with you...

Labels: Never be like peter who denied Jesus.

This week sure is a tiring one... 5days 4night field camp..
What's worse? I had a truckload full of stores, signal sets
and rifles to clear from the site.. Ended up being super tired,
even when i'm blogging now.. But just decided to blog a bit ba..

And i'm SUPER happy tomorrow,
cause i'll be bringing the person of my life to the new EHUB
at pasir ris, which is like so the far lor.... wonder how much
petrol will it cost me. zzzz but no amount of money used on
this special person is wasted... it's all worth it! and i'm gonna
do more special things for her.. like how the person who tagged
suggested...

That's all!!
Going down soon..
BYEBYE!
NIGHT NIGHT!!

Labels: Power of my LOVE

I LOVE HER,
I STILL LOVE HER,
I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HER...


GOD DAMN BUSYBODIES...
CANT U SEE THAT BY ASKING HER
BOUT U AND ME, YOU'RE MAKING HER
UPSET???? CALL URSELF FRIENDS???

Labels: God damn it

Today's Uncle Alan's birthday, and her mom invited me
to her house for dinner.. steamboat + bbq! didnt expect to be
that full too.. but wasnt that happy cause she kept saying i'm fat..
what the hell lor..

Before reaching her house, i brought her over to IMM to buy a gift
for Uncle, and she ended up buying a watch from titus.. Damn ex..
But well, it's for her dad anyway.. so it's worth it..

Really really love her and her presence...
Hope that it'll be like that forever, with her and me together.
But does dreams ever come true?
Not for me yet..

Good night my love..

Labels: she's my source of hope..

It's really very painful these few weeks..
Trying to do everything i can, while she's trying
to do everything to ruin it..
Because of her I've stop contacting most of my
friends.. Because of her I've not even have 10 friends
altogether now.. and she's just simply taking it so easily.

No matter what happens I'm always the last one on
her mind.. Her GOOD and CARING friends will always
be one of the top, and she feels so good about that.
She really think that those ppl are really so caring bout
her.. Let it be.. One day those ppl will disappoint her
like how they disappoint me.

I really need alcohol back in my life.. cuts, all sorts of
stuff that will numb this huge amount of pain she's
inflicting on me unknowingly..
Until now.. i'm still wondering.. Why cant I be like the
real Ah Bao totally, no feeling for love or whatsoever..
Why did God even create love in this world..
Why did He say such great things about love, only to
make me suffer so much by the word love...
WHAT IS HIS MOTIVE FOR PLAYING ME???
WHY!!!!!!!

Labels: gonna breakdown very soon..

Nowadays I really felt like I have to meet her always like that..
But sometimes is because she wanted me to do some things.
Like today i went to her workplace again to fetch her to IMM,
cause her mp3 player, the one the means a lot to her because
it was given by someone special to her, was spoilt.. so I just brought
her to IMM to choose a new one, which didnt satisfy her...
(Reason Cannot be explained here...)

I have a lot of wishes and favour from God..
Cause I really, really will do anything to have her back,
and that is all that matters in my life now..
I am willing to give my life up just to hear her saying
I love you..
But everything just seems so impossible..
And I'm just trying very hard not to face the fact.

why....

Labels: and to everyone else.., I'm just a playtoy.. to God

Watched Zohan with her today at cine...
and It's nice, and very pervertic... haha..
Anyway i'm not allowed to explain the details,
cause she dont wan some busybodies to keep
asking her bout me and her..
Some ppl just cant mind their own God damn
business.. wonder why..

Nvm... I'll keep on tolerating..
but there's no such thing as a forever tolerance..
Limit will always break one day...

Labels: Besides her, the rest are just bullshit.

Now, everyday, I'll think of how we used to be before..
But that's useless cause It'll never happen again.
A mistake of mine, has made her cry..
All i have now are jsut memories of her,
filling up my mind everyday.. every second...
But then, they're just memories..


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when she's quiet
millions of tings are running in her mind

when she's is not arguiing
she is tinking deeply

when she looks at u wiif eyes full of qns
she's wondering how long u will b arnd

when she ans ' im fine ' after a few seconds
she is not at all fine

when she stares at u
she is lockiing ur face iin her heart

when she lays on ur chest
she is wiishiing for u to be hers FOREVER

when she calls u everyday
she is seekiing for ur attention

when she sms's u everyday
she iis miissiing u

when she says I LOVE YOU
she truly means it

when she says tat she cant live wif out you
she has made up her mind tat u are her FUTURE

Labels: the regret i had... can never be atoned...

Some people are just hopeless...
But God will know what they're doing..

Anyway, I'm real happy that I'm able to give her a ride
for these 2 days... Firstly from her workplace to Holland V
to take a photo, and then to SIM to submit her application.
Then sent her to west mall to meet her mom..
The feeling of her holding on to my shoulders is just so nice..
As if the person is depending on u, and relying on you..
But i know it wont last long..
I'm just living on short term happiness. Cant seem to get long
term happiness anymore cause she dont trust me at all..
Just hope everything will turn out well soon..
without any "obstacles" that is..

haizzz..

Labels: He Knows everything..

The love of my life is flying off to bangkok tomorrow..
with those so good friends in church... It's a good thing
i separated myself from some of them, cause i know
no matter how long it takes, they'll still disappoint me
one day.. so might as well make everything short..
they dont need me anyway..

Spend her last day in sg before flying off tml with her,
which was like painting her house for the whole
afternoon...want this want that.. blah blah...
But everything's ok for me, as long as She's beside me.
Just that she's still attitude towards me... Zzzz =.=...

Well, because of my bike, I'm able to reach her hse
in just less than 10 mins, compared to the buses
i used to take last time.. it's so more convenient now.
Muahahaha.. can pop up at her house anytime suddenly
liao!!!

Labels: i'll miss you..

Labels: My poor bike.. and body...

Changed my mind bout the all white sp again cause paper work too troublesome in that shop, so now... I've gotten another sp, which is blue and white!! new paintwork, and it's cool!! Muahahahhaha.... Finally can have my own transport le, and guess dont have to take bus and mrt for some time le.. totally sick of those...
=)

Labels: HONDA SP

Labels: Sp rocks.. now what i need is some cosmetics..

Alas..
I can finally smell my bike coming real soon...

this feeling is just so.... errr dunno how to describe..

maybe the feeling of mothers having a baby?

hahahah...

Labels: relieved...

cant stand those ppl who hide things from u,
and when u find out that they are hiding things
from u, they still act like they're totally not wrong..
and can talk about it so loudly...

Guess i was right.. they are a selfish bunch too.

Buddies are for life, but not all of them.

Labels: hope something bad happens to them..